Het Hart Ontdaan Van Al Zijn Bloed Is Wit / The heart, drained of all its blood is white, digital video, 2018
‘Het Hart Ontdaan Van Al Zijn Bloed Is Wit’ is a short, documentary style film about sexual trauma and the effect it directly has on not only the individual, but on others, too, when inevitable shared.
A sexual trauma is never experienced alone. Every single person you’ll be intimate with after the fact, carries a part of the trauma in one of many possible ways. Therefore sexual assault is not only an individual experience. it is a mutual, shared one. In this documentary, I’ve talked with all the men I’ve been with, in an ongoing research to self, and to how I might have traumatized, or left a mark on others, whilst trying to heal.
Because of the highly sensitive topics the film discusses, the video remains privated and is not allowed to circulate outside of designated spaces.
Music by Nick Borchers, camera by Jedidja Smalbil, Lieve van Meegen and Lilian Anneloes, montage, screenplay and concept by Lilian Anneloes