Het Hart Ontdaan Van Al Zijn Bloed Is Wit / The heart, drained of all its blood is white, digital video, 2018
‘Het Hart Ontdaan Van Al Zijn Bloed Is Wit’ is a short, documentary style no-budget film about sexual trauma and the effect it directly has on not only the individual, but on others, too, when inevitable shared.
A sexual trauma is never experienced alone. Every single person you’ll be intimate with after the fact, carries a part of the trauma in any possible way. Therefore sexual assault is not only an individual experience. it is a mutual, shared one. In this documentary, I’ve talked with all the men I’ve been with, in an ongoing research to self, and to how I might have traumatized, or left a mark on others, whilst trying to heal.
Music by Nick Borchers, camera by Jedidja Smalbil, Lieve van Meegen and Lilian Anneloes, montage, screenplay and concept by Lilian Anneloes