HET HART ONTDAAN VAN AL ZIJN BLOED IS WIT (the heart, drained of all its blood is white) (2018, DIGITAL FILM)

'Het hart ontdaan van al zijn bloed is wit' is a short, documentary style film about sexual trauma and the effect it has on not only the individual, but a others, too when inevitably shared.  

When a stone is thrown into the water, it creates an amount of circular waves. Though the stone (the sexual trauma); the creator of the waves, might be long gone already, it's effect is still readily visible through the waves. Each sexual relationship had after certain trauma's can be seen as another wave, and is inevitably affected by the stone thrown. 

A sexual trauma is never experienced alone. Every single person you'll be intimate with after the fact, carries a part of the trauma in any possible way. Therefore sexual trauma is not only an individual experience. It is a mutual, a shared one.

In this documentary I will talk with all the men I've been with, in an ongoing research to self, and to how I might've traumatized, or left a mark on others (with my own traumas).